I swear...I try guys...Love, sigh...No matter what you do it's not enough...WTF! 

 I really need to accept the fact that I'm a rare bird...and it's hard to find someone who appreciates rarity...it makes most people feel average...and the average don't appreciate the rare...sigh.  Story of my life.  UGH!

Live the life you dream about, I dare you.