...a little story
...this photo says, "I got you."
...so, the other day I was in the clinic with Mini...sitting alone in the waiting room...WAITING for Mini to finish her test...when this couple came out of the office with a little baby...the mom and dad were discussing their situation...the wife and baby followed the doctor into another room while the husband talked with the receptionist about making another appointment...their conversation went something like this...
receptionist: How can I help you?
dad: I need to make another appointment.
receptionist: O.K...you can come back on Monday, September....blah, blah, blah...
dad: Oh no...It needs to be on a Wednesday morning...
receptionist: O.k...but, that will be September...blah, blah, blah...
dad: That's fine, as long as it's a Wednesday morning...that's the time my wife wants...
Sigh...this just made me think about my situation and how alone I am...and how much easier this would be if I had someone who really loved and could be there for Me and Mini...They would make sure I got the right appointments while I talked with the doctor...smile.
So, when I saw the photo of the couple pictured above...I thought, "oh, this is what it looks like when someone has your back."...when I have someone like that...I will take a picture with him just like this one...and send it out as a Christmas card...lol. I'd also buy him a ring just like the one in this post...with our initials engraved in the side...Yep, I'm that kind of girl when in love...Something I have not been in a really long time...sigh.
Being in love is not easy when you have a chronically ill child...I mean, I don't have a lot of time to think about dinners, dates and sex...you know, all that cute normal couple stuff like hanging out with him, meeting his friends, him meeting my friends...hell, I hardly see me friends...My love life would be more like...Did you see Mini take her medicine today? Oh, you wanna go away this weekend...can't, Mini's not feeling well...Oh, I'm sorry...the lawyers needed to see me today...can we get together in two weeks...? It would take a very special man...and this is NYC after all...just try finding a straight man...lol.
I'm just rambling now...I usually keep these feeling deep, deep, deep inside, so far from my life...but, seeing that dad caring for his family that day in the clinic just bought all these feeling rushing back into my life...UGH!
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i feel you. Hang stuff! It will happen. I.K.N.O.W.I.T.
ReplyDeleteI'm with you on this. I so look forward to being "in love" again and sharing my life with that special one.
ReplyDeleteLol at "this is NYC after all...just try finding a straight man". Same here in Atlanta, Hon.
One thing is definite. I do believe it will happen. For you. For me. And anyone else open to it.
We all need someone to have our backs. To love us enough to take care of the incidentals. We as woman are strong and independent and can do it all, take care of it all. But, to have someone looking out for you, someone who has your back...that is pure gold. And I miss having that little piece of gold in my life.
ReplyDeleteRebecca
I feel you lady. Keep your head up....your strong long time love will come along soon. I hope for me too. I did not realize Mini was sick. I am more sorry for that. I will lift you both up in prayer!!!! Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteGirl let it all out, we have all felt that way every now & then even with a partner there.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing I was touched by your honesty.I don't know you but I feel the same way sometimes. All I can say is, God is Good & fair and what he has done for others, he will do for you :)
ReplyDeleteI wish You and your Mini all the Best that life has to offer Love, Health, Happiness and lots of money :)
What a great post! I'm wishing you and Mimi the best. Even though you are a strong woman, capable of dealing with the situation, it is completely natural to wish for a partner that can help share the load. I get that you don't need one, but it would be nice to have him around.
ReplyDeleteThanks guys...It hits me every once in while...normally I'm too busy to think about love...but, it would be nice...
ReplyDeleteKeep Your Head Up!..I'm stuck in "Conservative-ville" Arizona where every brother is with a white woman, and the white guys are so racist that they rarely look at you. I too long for a good relationship!
ReplyDeletesweet post despite i all.
ReplyDeletei love when i hear women speak about the desire to be in love or have a man...need a man, etc., since it's more likely the case that i hear them/us saying the opposite.
"we need you" by jill scott--one of the most relevant songs ever!
Live the life you dream about...I dare you.